Things Past

I cannot help but say that I have seen my pathetic self over the past few days.

I did not go to my internship fair that I had prepared minimally for, but nonetheless prepared for. I have not been applying for internships although many of the deadlines are this week. I did not go to my first family group meeting. I went to another, less good, meeting instead. I've been sleeping everyday very late, almost helplessly because I am enslaved to my body in that sense. I have not been doing my homework in the time that I have been allotted each day. I push it until I am under pressure of having it due the next day. I have not gotten my resume edited at career services like I have been planning to for the past week.

However, there is an internship fair coming up in two weeks with IIE, I will apply for internships this week, I will go to fg today, I will sleep earlier from now on, I will allot my time better to do homework, and I will have my resume edited tomorrow.

These things that continue to test me for character are for the better.
I know I am talking about things I will do this week, but my "will" is weak, actually. I hope I can learn what it means to seek God's will over mine.
This is a process of getting humbled, and it stings a little.